I'm used to being the enemy of most of the world. Having so many...close is the weirdest part.
If someone would dare to say that about you, they're likely someone like I used to be. Who likes to look down on others for caring. But I know I was wrong, at least partially.
[ The closeness is nice. That supersedes his embarrassment, at least. ]
Letting yourself feel things openly is its own strength. Risking vulnerability to forge a stronger bond...it's harder than shutting off, in a way. You showed me how.
I'm sure you'll get used to having so many people close to you.
Not necessarily. It's also possible that the way I am just and can rub people the wrong way and it's not necessarily because they are looking down on others. I understand that I can't be friends with everyone because of it and that is perfectly fine.
[He leaned over slightly resting his head on the other.]
I'm glad that you are doing that. Even since we got here you've gone through quite a change compared to back home.
You are right about that and there are various kinds of close. Like I have plenty of people I'm close to in a way of friends. [Some are closer than others as he gets to know them, but they are still there and he lets them in when necessary.]
You're the only one who I choose to be close to in ways like this.
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Date: 2020-08-19 08:10 pm (UTC)[ He sinks further in, up to his neck, and draws his knees up. ]
It's fine. I'm amazed by how few enemies I've made up until this point. There had to be one.
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Date: 2020-08-19 08:38 pm (UTC)But maybe finding someone with patience was what you needed.
[He soon looked on at the water quietly, watching the steam rise up.]
I guess so... There is always going to be someone who doesn't like you. Like I am sure there is someone out there who might not like me.
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Date: 2020-08-21 12:52 am (UTC)If someone would dare to say that about you, they're likely someone like I used to be. Who likes to look down on others for caring. But I know I was wrong, at least partially.
[ The closeness is nice. That supersedes his embarrassment, at least. ]
Letting yourself feel things openly is its own strength. Risking vulnerability to forge a stronger bond...it's harder than shutting off, in a way. You showed me how.
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Date: 2020-08-21 08:01 am (UTC)Not necessarily. It's also possible that the way I am just and can rub people the wrong way and it's not necessarily because they are looking down on others. I understand that I can't be friends with everyone because of it and that is perfectly fine.
[He leaned over slightly resting his head on the other.]
I'm glad that you are doing that. Even since we got here you've gone through quite a change compared to back home.
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Date: 2020-08-22 04:06 am (UTC)[ Yugi settled on his shoulder, and he smiled, draping a loose arm around him to keep him there. ]
Just remember that even as cramped as the train is, you're the one who chooses who gets close to you. And I chose you.
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Date: 2020-08-23 09:48 am (UTC)You're the only one who I choose to be close to in ways like this.